Allow yourself to feel.

Connect to the music. Time to plug your emote cords into the amp. And let the sound strike those strings. Let it electrify and magnify your soul. Will you go? Inside the fortified walls of your heart. Remember. 

Take a moment. 

The damages of time. The wear and tear of growing up. Of forsaking your innocence once upon a time. Hear, the soft waves of memories crashing back into your piers, consciousness. It is okay to feel, for flesh feels. Do not lose your humanity. Do not lose heart. We are but ordinary humans, yet with extraordinary senses. Extrasensory life. Breathe. Pause.

~ Intermission ~

I am so grateful, but I forget. I want to be re-minded, of peeps who have touched me somewhere along the lines and dots of life. Of places I have been and sights imprinted on retina still to day. Life is tough right now but surprisingly enough, I am able to feel strong in these tender moments of reminiscence. And that voice, gently whispering in my ear, nudging on my back.

"It's time to go. Time to try again. Forward and repeat." Indeed.

Courage takes conviction. 
A weak will can be empowered. 
And perseverance needs practice. 

Let me speak these things over you, as a gift from your bro. Let me not be afraid of challenging and encouraging you, deer. Let em come out. These words that are often trapped in cognitive maelstrom. My mental storm. I guess I do care about what you think of me after all. Because there have been bad models. Those who have abused words in my regard. Sentences in the Mandarin, French and English vocab that have affected me. だから. だから I cannot simply speak, refuse to speak. Everyone has a sensitive heart buried under hurt ego. How can I thus trespass mounted walls. How can I cause someone's city to rock and crumble. Honesty and vulnerability only bring out more pain and suffering. I am not yet ready, to feel with ya.

Simply a simple desire. To trust in people and their words. To have a mentor, a bigger brother or sister figure, trustworthy. To have significant others willing to take care of me. To find comfort and refuge in others' compliments and encouragements. Let me not be afraid of the "I" deep down inside. And let the tears of this river not be interrupted. Let me be nurtured so I can discover my true potential and the person I was created to become. I want to be able to embrace myself again, just like that very first day. To enable my heart to pump out His precious blood freely. Fear. The world can be a scary ride, full of surprises and ambushes. But hold on tight. Do not lose sight of self. And know thy true worth.

Eyes closed. "I wish..." 
Candles blown.