My mind sometimes plays tricks on me

Unfolding another dimension

Opening a portal to the surreal

So I can see
Into oblivion

Sometimes
When I lay eyes on one
There would be that strange feeling
Of connectedness
Admiration
Nostalgia
An unseen variable
Where we be besty buy
Spurring each other on
Towards greatness
A future
Of joy
And honest mind

But the visions would only last so long
And before long
Be sucked back to reality
To a present far from the imagined
A currentness of still awkwardness
Stagnating conversation
And stubborn reservations

If only
I may be braver
Bolder
More genuine
More expressive
Of desires
And wishes

Why is it hard to pronounce
These words

"Let us be friends."

What do I fear

Prompt reminder
Of

One called best friend
One and only
One disappointment
One too many
And suddenly
One equaled zero

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It hurts

When you try your best to love someone
But the feeling is not reciprocated

And you feel like you can only blame yourself
For having tried too hard
Or not hard enough

Reason why
We be fretting
Scuba plunging

I mean
Who can afford to be hurt again
And who wouldn't put up front
Protection
Against insomnia

But don't we all torment
Longing for special K
To come
Show
how to hope
Love

It's okay
To still puzzle over past
Understandable
That somewhere along
By constantly denying true self
And true feelings
You have lost the ability to cry
To care

You are grieving after all

Don't be afraid of the pain
The incomprehensible
Inconsolable
The deep-seated
Memories
When you weren't loved
Well
When dignity, sacked
And loneliness
Rehearsed

No wonder
That you dare not love no more
You were never loved in the first place

So it only makes sense
That you experience the joy of being again
That you allow yourself to be engaged
Let another touch those dark corners
of beating star
Allow yourself to be healed
From past
Ego
Self

Fact
You are certainly loved
Certainly accepted

Precious child divine.